So yes, I went to Mexico... and it was amazing....... I really feel a calling to potentially transfer to the University of Texas--El Paso, in order to get involved with their youth ministry training program, Cross Cultures. I applied my senior year of high school, but chose Stritch instead. All year I've been battling within myself whether or not that was the right decision. Upon getting to Texas, and then, Juarez, I realized that God really wants to do something big with my life, and I have a feeling that by leaving my comfort zone, going to the SMALL (haha, jk) state of Texas (yeah, not so small, now is it???), just might be the thing He's calling me to do.

No family, two acquaintances that I met thanks to the Juarez trip... other than that, I would know absolutely NOBODY... and yet, I'm really wanting to go. Is that normal?

Please pray that I can talk to the people that'll help me find answers to my questions, and to find them fast. I have less than ONE month to figure this all out. Thanks for everything!!!

And Anna, I am praying for ya. I hope you're having an amazing time in Europe!!! :D

So yeah... I'm at camp... it's been a weird day. I'm bummed but not all at the same time. I want to cry and laugh, sleep and stay up all night. I'm confident that I won't be an arrogant person like others I played with this past week, yet, with the overall lack of musicians, I'm starting to feel rather anxious and nervous. I hate mixed emotions.

Even more, I hate not having the confidence to say what I really feel sometimes. I totally wish I could go back and speak my mind on some issues that really mattered. I want to be able to just get this stuff out of my system, but I'm afraid at how people (more so, the person it involves) would react. It's crap...but hey, it's life. Anywho, moving along... I wish I had someone to talk to, but people are either jamming or back at the cabin. Poop. Maybe tomorrow. For now, I really should head to bed... well, maybe soon. Later.

Hi. Answer me this: Am I a complete doofus? Because, I think I am.

Now that I'm past that, please pray for my grandma. She's really got a nasty batch of cancer, and things aren't looking good. She might not have been much of a grandma ever, but she's still my family, and I love her regardless.

I hate this... I felt on top of the world about a half hour ago. Now I feel like a whale turd at the bottom of the ocean. I think I need to go jam or something.

Thanks for praying. :) God bless you all!

So, this font is really cool to me at the moment, so I'm a-gonna use it!

I'm so happy at the moment, I feel like I'm going to bust. I just read something that someone wrote about me, and it was so nice that it made me miss hanging out with him. Gosh... I have an awesome soul mate. Hahaha.

So I'm in my room reading today, and my phone rings. It's my friend Nathan, who's going to school in Indiana. He asks if I'm at school, and I say, "of course... why?" "Well then," he says, "get ready, because I'm coming to visit." He was in the area, so he stopped by for a totally random and unplanned visit. It was so cool! I hadn't seen him for several months, so it was a pleasant surprise.

But, for now, I'm thinking that I'm going to go find a practice room with a piano in it, sit down, and play to get this sudden rush of energy out in a productive manner. Thank God for random little things to make a person's day brighter! God bless y'all!

So, yes... it has been quite sometime since I last wrote ANYTHING... sorry about that. Anywho, first things first... HAPPY EASTER!!! Seriously, what's more exciting than celebrating Jesus coming back to life? I mean, He said He would, and hey, how 'bout it? He kept His promise! WoW--amazing, no?

Moving along, as the semester drags on, my patience with homework and tests wears thin, but that could also just be me not wanting to have to put a whole lot of work into my classes, but I am. Gotta keep the flow of knowledge coming, grades up, and brain stimulated. Otherwise I become a vegetable. After a while, vegetables that just sit start to stink. I don't want anyone to think that I'm a stinky veggie... would you?

Since February, a couple of big things have happened. I've grown in my faith so much that it's quite astonishing to me. A couple of weeks ago, I suddenly found myself single. Shortly after, I made a new friend from Kentucky and fell in love with the movie "V for Vendetta." Elijah Wood's eyes freak me out in "Sin City." Good thing I never thought about them much before. Oh, and I had my first soda today since Ash Wednesday. It was delicious. It was "Old Fashioned Cream Soda", compliments of Jolly Good Soda (c)--> copyright symbol. Finally, I've been praying long and hard lately with more intensity than I've ever had outside of a Christian community. It rocked my butt.

But, for now, I will head back to watch the remainder of "Good Night, and Good Luck", head to bed, wake up at some time of my leisure, pack up, get an oil change, go back to school and finish my homework. Lovely. At least I got to come home for a while. Thanks for reading my babbles. I appreciate it. Oh, one more thing... I'm on MySpace now... yay? www.myspace.com/emurray18 if you're interested. Rock on for Jesus, and take care!!!